Spring cleaning

I am not really a tidy person... not really messy but let's say I have a relatively high tolerance for messiness (I happen to be a very tolerant person for a variety of things). I hate spring cleaning..... specifically the dust coming from the things that I am packing.... I have allergies to irritants such as dust... with the exposure to these allergents, it means skin itchiness and redness, teary eyes and stuffy nose..... hence I hate cleaning the house. Usually I start to spring clean only when I need to (the messiness is beyond my tolerance) or when I am confused and troubled.

The troubled mind is like a messy room.... confusing thoughts lingering and clouding your senses, creating a sense of discomfort. Thinking through the problems and organising your thoughts is just like packing your room, throwing away things that needed to be dumped and tidying up those that you wish to keep. Of course, the process of organising your thoughts is a lot more difficult then tidying up your room physically. The physical act of cleaning up the house may just be a therapeutic process where you have the ability to exert control over the mess and to create a comforting physical environment for yourself.

Recently, thoughts of tidying up the house is frequently on my mind and I had been furiously organising my things. Books to go to where they belong on the bookshelves, unwanted and old books to the recycling bin, clothes to be back in the cupboards where they belong, bags to be stored back in their little pouches and kept back in the cabinet, even files in my laptop are organised into the relevant folders. Yet with all these, I am not comforted. I am feeling the blues again. Life changing decisions to make, uncertain future to face, frustrating situations to face..... how have I allowed so many confusing and scary thoughts and emotions to grow in my mind and now cloud it, I do not know. Perhaps, spring cleaning should be done more frequently to prevent accumulation and creation of such messy thoughts... but clearly, it is now time for me to tidy up all that is in my mind..... it may take a long time, it may take quite a bit of effort.... but it is definitely time.........